booooo!!!

i saw neither of them today!

BOOOOO!!!

weekend with S

friday:

A: pumayag ka sa 2 pm study group ni yellow? nagyayaya kasi si kel manuod ng sharkstale after lunch eh..

S: Nyek! Ndi ko alam! sori! nood na lng aftr natin mgaral. hehe

A: Nyek!- huh? bakit? Ndi ko alam!- ano ngayon? sori!-bat ka nagsosori? nood na lng aftr natin mgaral. hehe (sori, ang labo mo kasi eh.. )

S: Db tnanong mko kng nagoo ako sa stdy grup ng 2pm tpos sbi mo dn ngyaya c kel mgmovi.

A: E inulit mo lang sinabi ko eh!

S: Bst ndi tyo ngkakaintindihan. hehe :) pano na 2m? 2 na?

A: i'm torn kasi eh. i had my mind set on studying at 4 pa.

S: ako din eh. bsta aral tyo 2m! :)

A: worried kasi ako na if i go to the 4 pm one third wheel ako kanila abigail..

S: ah. hmm.. eh di 4 na lng tyo lahat! ayaw ko kmi ni yellow lng. heheh. kakahya.

A: malamng if ever kasama mo si yellow and val! bahala na bukas.. i'll let the bench decide.. anyway, good luck sa theo! magaral ka na nga!

S: knakabhan na nga ako eh.. pgdasal mko ah. txt mko 2m kng ano plan mo. ayaw ko mging 3rd wheel!!

at around 10:39..

S: nafeel mo yun lindol??

A: ndi eh.. tulog na kasi ako..

S: Hehe lumindol!! :) cge 2log ka na!

A: matulog ka na rin! maaga ka pa bukas diba?

S: ndi pa ako tapos magaral eh!

Saturday:

A: 2 nalang ako magstudy group.. lunch nalang daw kami eh.. sama ka? :)

S: cge. :) wala akong notes eh. hehe. :) san?

A: Sa eastwood daw.

S: hehe. cge. :) sabay tyo?

A: nasa school ako ngayon for the marketing competition. pwede akong sumabay sa iyo or sunod ka nalang. ikaw bahala..

S: til wat tym b yan? :) sabay na lng tyo. :) txt mko mamaya kng san kta daanan.

A: til around 12 ata sya.

S: sunduin kita ng 1, k lang?

A: bkt 1 pa? may gagawin ka pa ba?

S: daan ako ksi sa bhay ng frend ko eh. :) sunod na lng ako sa eastwud para ndi ka na mghntay. :)

darn!

he arrived around 2 at Fazoli's.. we were already done eating though and when he came he was still in his business attire as required by their prof for their orals.. when he came he thought that the study group was there and was surprised to see me with the bench.. hindi nanaman kami nagkaintindihan.. he asked me to go with him to buy his lunch and we talked about his theo test and our misunderstanding.. i suggested that we just text yellow and suggest that we have the study group in eastwood instead..

after lunch we decided to go to the tiangge and look around.. we then went to mcdo to buy ice cream then hung out at mini stop while we ate.. at around 3 we met upwith yellow and val at starbucks and did some "studying." yellow and val had to leave early because of the alicia keys concert and so we decided to end the study group at around 5.. on the way to the carpark, he asked me, "if you won the lottery, what would you do with the money?" after some thought i said, "i'd probably help build our house (refering to the one our family planned to have built)." i threw back the question at him and he said he didn't want to answer the question because compared to my answer his was pretty ma-babaw.. :D eventually he told me that he'd use the money to buy addidas and nike stuff.. hehehe..

riding home with him was fun.. i don't know if its because unconsciously i'm putting in some effort or what but for some reason its just so easy to talk to him and even when we aren't talking the silence is still comfortable.. whats so great about it is that i feel as if i could talk to him about anything and always get an honest response from him..

sunday:

at 11 this morning, he YM'd me asking what time i was going to mass because his family wasn't around.. told him that i'd probably go at 12 and i could accompany him.. he told me that he planned to go in the afternoon and asked for the mass sched.. i told him it was at 430, 6 and 730.. he decided to go at 6.. i was doing astrid's blog and got carried away and so by the time i finished i was late for mass.. i decided to go to the 430 one instead.. 4 pm came when my sister told me that mass was at 4 and not 430.. o damn, i though with a smile.. texted him the correct mass sched and informed him that i'll probably see him in mass then..

we sat together in mass and hardly said a word the whole time until during the communion when he asked if i was going to receive.. we had some small talk afterwards and asked him if it was okay if he'd take me home.. "oo naman noh" he said.. i smiled back.. :D and so he took me home after mass.. :D

sabi nya

oo, si S nagsabi nun..

hay..

19

astrid and i checked our random numbers for reg next sem..

natuwa ako.. pareho kaming random number ni V.. :D

i'm 19 under SOM, he's 19 under SOSS.. what are the chances.. :D

small doze of strawberry vanilla

i should have gone to school earlier today! sam said that V and S hung out in the strains room at around 9 am this morning.. i was still at home, sleeping..

i accompanied astrid and liz to the caf for lunch.. i didn't think that he'd be at his bench but he was.. :D he was wearing white and khakis.. he waved at as while we were approaching and i smiled back.. as we went pass him, liz commented and told him about how "conyotic" he looked with his get up.. when i looked back at him, over my shoulders, while i was walking towards the caf, for that brief instance, i saw him smiling at me.. (well, i think it was me he was smiling at.. wishful thinking here..) hay.. that smile..

at around 130 we passed by their bench again, in hopes that i'd see S again.. we(me, sam, liz, astrid) were going to the trike stop since we wanted to go to NBS.. he wasn't there but V was.. he waved at us when he saw and we waved back.. after our trip to NBS, we left astrid and liz at the polsci dept and sam and I went back to the strains room.. saw V there studying with the BF of voldemort.. it was stat i think.. once again wasn't able to talk to him.. for some reason i just can't seem to start a conversation with him! its so frustrating! he left with voldemort since they had class together..

i went home..

fortune read

argh! i only saw him twice today.. as i was going to the caf with sam and as i was going back to the room from the caf.. how sad..

i had my fortune read today care of mcdonald.. using the Kings as representation of the "boys" in my life, i had to ask a certain question and depending on the cards, my fate will be determined.. clubs was mr. mystery man, diamonds was N, spades was V, and hearts was no other than S.. :D i can't particularly remember what came out with the others but i do remember that N is supposed to be the one (the hell?!), V is good in bed (hmmm..), Mr. mystery man is the most mysterious (no kidding?!) S will hurt me but loves me the most.. :D he'll be a great dad to my kids, he'll be my next boyfriend, and my parents will like him the most.. hahaha.. as if!

syempre naalala ko talaga yung kay S diba?!

for the first time

"Ara, musta ka na?"

"uh.. okay lang? bkt? :) (it really was weird since i was just texting with him earlier asking why he didn't go with us to have dinner after the game)

"hehe wala lng. :) gs2 lng kta kamustahin. Tapos na b kyo sa mga paper nyo?"

"semi.. :) CS Defens nalang 4 friday.. tapos wala na ata.. finals nalng.. ikaw?"

"2m may longtest ako tapos sa sat na yun next. orals 4 theo. :) sa mon, may due akong research paper na 15 pages, tues SA exam, thurs philo tapos m free! :) hehe

"ang dami ha! puro exam na yung akin sa finals e, xcept sa philo na sobrang d ko paalam gagawin ko! magaral ka na 4 ur test! baka maka2log ka pa.. :)"

"hehe actualy, m22log nko. gsing akong maagang maaga para mgaral. :)"

"hehe.. gawain ko din yan dati tapos natigil nung ndi na ako nagigising.. :) anong oras ba test mo? 4 wat?"

"SA. Culture n heritage. 12-3 pa naman eh. hehe :) cge, m22log nko. sori kng nawirdohan ka ah. hehe gnyt! :)"

"ndi, nagulat lng ako sa tanong mo kc parang ang formal tapos nagkita lng tayo kanina.. :) ndi lang ako sanay.. :) gudnyt nd gudluck!"

if you're weird then i'm stupid for saying you're weird! argh! of all the things to say..

fabulous.. just fabulous!

message me

i "missed" texted him the day before after our marketing defense.. :D the message was for my friend mandi who lives in las pinas and since i was going to ATC that afternoon i invited her to meet me in alabang.. :D "i'm going to alabang later.. san ka? you wanna meet up in ATC" i sent the message to mandi and then to him.. hahaha.. yes, i purposely did it to start a conversation and it worked.. :D
"ang layo naman nun! sino kasama mo?"
"huh?" (pretending that i didn't know what he was talking about.. i didn't want to be obvious here.. :D )
he resent me my first message with an additional "miss text ka ata.. hehehe"
"shoot! sorry! kaya naman pala eh.. but to answer your question i'm going with my cousins to have our pictures taken for my lola"
"ah okay.. kamusta CS nyo?"
"k naman! we were 5 hours late!"
"buti naman pumayag teacher nyo."
"walang choice e.. :)"

and so we texted for some time about N's parents and if i should have dinner with them.. in the evening i told him that i was finally having dinner with N's parents and that i was in pier waiting.. we texted some more but after a while he stopped replying..

at 230 in the morning, he texted back saying that he had a party at his place for his cousin and that they once again got drunk.. "wow! every weekend party mo ah! siguro pinagtawanan mo nanaman yung mga lasing noh?".. he replied saying that his cousin had thrown up thrice already and that they were drunk.. wasn't able to reply anymore because i fell asleep..

the next day, i replied and said that i can't wait for the time that he gets drunk, he said that that wouldn't happen and that the last time that he got really drunk was back in high school.. :D he told me that he just got back from mass and asked if i already went.. told him that i was going in the evening since my family had to go to binangonan to visit my lola.. after a few text messages i once again didn't hear from him..

went online in the evening, saw his name but i didn't message him.. he didn't message me either.. :( (i'm worried that he's starting to notice that i like him.. )

few minutes later my fone beeped.. it was him..
"gnyt ara! :) m sure ur lola ws hapy wd d picture of u n ur cuzns. 2log nk0. C u 2m! :)"

*sigh* what are you doing to me?

wishful thinking

how i wish i could tell him..

how i can't stop thinking about him..
how much he makes me happy in the little things that he do..
how my heart smiles when i see him..
how i feel all warm and fuzzy when i see him smiling back at me..
how everything seems okay when i'm with him..
how my day seems so much better..

how i wish that he feels the same way..

and i curse you for being so sweet and so kind..

Yesterday after class, i stayed in the strains room almost the whole day while searching the net for pictures for our CS project.. i saw S enter the room but he quickly left, which made me wonder where he went.. the stalker in me asked sam to go with me to the caf just to see where he went, but he wasn't in their bench when we passed by.. we saw vjT and spoke with him and finally, i saw him buying a glass of juice by the stall.. i pretended not to see him and rushed back to sam to tell her i've found him.. he left with Tel which made me happy since it meant he was going back to strains.. I bought myself juice and Mr. Chips and went back to the room with sam.. Upon arriving, i offered everyone chips, including him, but he declined.. i continued working and once in awhile engaged in small talks with the strainers and him as he and Flutter did their homework for strains..

since i've been eating all day, i kept saying how full i was.. i offered him my Mr. Chips and he hesitated to take it at first but eventually did, saying he was just concerned and wanted to help me.. hahaha.. as if! but the thought was still sweet.. :D

for some reason i was somewhat bitchy and kept on making comments to everyone so he kept telling me that i was being mataray.. and that i must have my period since i kept eating and being mataray.. the BF of Voldemort said that i should be more mataray since that might be a turn on for S.. the conversation somehow came to a point with him saying that i'm actually okay, its just that i'm too tall! ugh! now my height's the problem?! "paliit lang daw ako! tangkad ko daw kasi" waaah! i don't know if i should feel bad about what he said or what..

after a while they played a few rounds of bridge.. one of the players had to leave so i joined in the game.. we ended up being partners.. :D we won a few rounds and lost in some.. in one of the rounds, abigail had to leave so sky had to take her place, i asked out loud if sky was my new partner and to my delight, S said that he doesn't want and wanted me to be his partner.. in a way, he was saying that he didn't want to play if we weren't partners.. :D hahaha..

at around 445 liz and alaine went to pick me up to leave for my house since we had to do our CS proj, our game ended and i prepared to leave.. went out the room to go to our bench only to realize that i left my file case in the room.. so i went back, got my things and upon leaving i saw S and he asked me if i was leaving, i said yes and he stomped his feet.. hahaha.. he's so cute when he does that.. :D stayed for a few minutes in our bench and when we were about to leave i saw him and voldemort.. asked where they were going but they didn't hear me.. kel couldn't bring us home so out of nowhere i shouted and asked S if he could take us.. he seemed to respond negatively but i think voldemort convinced him and said that they'd take us if they could watch the DLSU vs FEU final game at our house.. i agreed of course! :D we had to drop by popi's house first so when we got there, everyone went down, except the two of us, with voldemort at the back of the pick up.. :D while waiting for everyone, we played a trick on voldemort by fixing the parking of the pick up then suddenly hitting the breaks so he could fall.. it was hillarious.. :D we went to the house and while driving he asked if my brother xavi was at home.. he told me that xavi was his favorite.. :D

when we got home, xavi and don was outside painting.. and i became excited for him.. :D he stayed with them for a while, just sitting down and watching them paint.. it was really a cute sight.. even if the game was already on tv, he still stayed with them and watched them paint.. :D wish i took their picture.. :D we watched the game for a while, eating home made pizza and discussing CS at the same time..

the game finally ended, with la salle winning and us ateneans feeling down because we knew the la sallians from strains would brag about it the next day.. they left afterwards..

an hour later, while we were discussing our final plans with santayo about our CS proj, i received a message from him.. "Ara, tnx sa fud n sa pgstay sa hse m0! gudluck sa cs ny0!"

i couldn't stop smiling.. :D